sometimes its better to know than wonder

 

" its takes a strong person to say sorry, and a stronger person to forgive "
 

dear you,
it has been quite a while since we've been friends and rather bestfriends to be exact we never faced arguements between each other
but we've watched each other go through ups and downs together giving each other advises each other's shoulders hugs
now somehow i feel as though everything changed and you aint gonna be there for me anymore
i dont feel needed by you anymore! i dont feel a thing anymore all i know is you dont realise that im not there
cause i dont think you even care about me? i really am very confused by your attitude nowadays and im not gonna say you changed
cause who am i to judge you right? but all i can say is your attitude towards me is different
i bet you wont realise anything! hmmmm..
i dont have anything else to say and i hope you yourself figure out that this is referring to you
bye.
 

i find every moment before school to do this!

if only the nightsky would be like this
 

legs are still aching from wed's training and just now's pe! HAHA
and now begins talking and thoughts are running through
then another thought comes in saying why must i care about all this when you yourself dont care at all?
i need to do well for endyears so i'm gonna study properly like literally study properly 8(
i dont have a choice!
i feel like being spastic and high at this hour but then no!
anyway dears, pinkyyyy promise ok? we wont drift at all love you!
 

 

WHAT IS ON MY MIND AT THIS MOMENT?

what i have been doing in my life that is interesting? N.O.T.H.I.N.G
i'm glad that spain won the world cup :) proud of them
i watched despicable me recently and its bloody motherfucking cute i cannot stand agnes she cheers me up once i see her face!
i have been doing my homework recently and handing it up on time (y)
i do not know what else to say? but i'm missing someone at this very moment i doubt he is too anyway
i'm thinking about what i can do tmr but i'm having training and its about time that i do some running 8)
i am done thinking of what to write and there's a lot of "i"s that is pissing me off
so bye!

no such thing as fairytales, happy endings
 

just a simple thing called love which has it's black and white effect, black for the confusion hurt tears sadness pain depression scars received the painful memories that'll be glued to your mind time causing it to fade away slowly keeping us waiting.
white for the happiness joy smiles hugs kisses laugters presents joy, memories that'll stay! we can't long for fairytales, cause those are all in books while we're not in a book but this thing called planet earth which is reality, to be strong? we learn it the hard way through the tears sadness heartaches that we've been receiving learning the mistakes made, not being able to redo it but to not repeat it.
 

love that i wont give up without a fight, so bombz. (y)

"Two souls with but a single thought, two hearts that beat as one."
 

i had training today and it felt quite good 8)
and i felt like a princess for 20 minutes, cause someone combed my hair for me and dryed it for me as well <3
HAHA K L.A.M.E i've got nothing to type and i'm rather bored
and i hope SPAIN wins tonight! heheee off to do my homeworkkkk
buhbye.

"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage."
 

i've been tonning too much and im catching up with my homework at this current moment
so far i guess life has been pretty alright =) nothing very extra ordinary happened for the past few days
other than school school school and well more school??? i've got training tmr and i wanna see the new coach's face! hehe
i'm short of $ and i need to get a lot of things and forget bout my august shopping spree doubt i can save enough by then
imma study more soon!! :(
 

you make everything worth while and putting a smile on both of our faces
with your ridiculous acts and stupid jokes and sayings, thanks for having patience in me 
and yes i'll make it worth it 
love you for everything wobbly 8) <3

hey dearest girl, happy birthday ;)
i wrote everything to you in the letter that i gave you, love you!
 

today was arynna's bday celebration glad that she had a huge smile on her face
thanks to everyone that came ;)
and now 90210 just ended, i feel like a rather hardworking girl ahhaha i did my homework
sometimes... ohh idk what to feel nowadays honestly speaking its like a building on top of my head waiting to crash on top of me
8(
bye.

here's less than 1/4 of the pictures we took during camp :)
 

had church camp for 3 days! and now sch has started, waking up early in the morning dragging a heavy heart to sch
hahah oh god couldnt even open my eyes in class :( 
kk gonna upload a few pictures of when i was at sentosa with sheralyn and ate dinner with caden 
 

 





life doesnt go the way you planned it to be, but either way we still need to live to the fullest
fml

2 years ago picture of us ah sheralyn? hahahah :)
still my favourite picture of us both hehehe
 

i went to sentosa with sheralyn on monday hoping that it wouldnt rain!
had a good time with her lying on the beach with our shades on and talking and crapping
headed to dhoby to meet caden to have japanese food after both headed back to my house to slack and camwhore :)
just now went to queensway with arynna to follow her get her stuff and have lunch
and now its 3:09am and i cant sleep at all
idk whats going through my mind but well theres a lot but sometimes i wonder whats the point of looking at revenge?
when i see you crumbling deep down inside..
 

one fine day im gonna leave and go and never come back..
like what you always say takes two hands to clap so i shall play with karma to both
im not being harsh look at what happened one month back